All or nothing

After having my confidence ripped to shreds on Friday by a disappointing makeover, I was understandably back to being contemplative on Monday. I don’t know why these things occur to me but I realised at approximately 9:48pm that I’m the type of person who thinks that if you can’t have everything you want now then there is no point in having anything. I guess I’ve been expecting to wake up one day and everything I want will arrive and I’ll be content. What am I, 5 years old?. Life isn’t Christmas and Santa isn’t going to bring me what I want one morning in a gift wrapped box because I’ve been a good girl. If I want something I’m going to have to move towards it. I’ve been imagining the life I want and getting fixated on the parts I can’t have instead of trying to acquire the parts I can. I want to buy a house with solar power in a suburb with trees everywhere, a garden with flowers and a short walk from a friendly café. I want to cook, have friends over for dinner parties, have a vegetable garden, get back into craft, do yoga, have chooks and a cat. Apart from the house and pet problem I realised that I can start to achieve some of those things now. I can’t acquire them immediately and all at once but I can work towards them.
So first on the list, this weekend I’m starting a vegie garden and I’m making one of my favourite meals, vegetarian lasagne.